I have been so ever loven busy at work. While I was on vaca my teams performance slipped so I have been working my bottom off everyday since then. I couldnt believe how crazy it was while I was away. Man this place is so much like a school. I spent Thurs literally running back and forth between HR, my desk, my bosses desk. I think I was in my seat for an hours all day. Considering I spend about 6 hours there normal that is insane.
When I woke up Thurs morning and turned on the living room tv it clicked and there was sound but no pic and turned off in about 5 secs. We fooled around w/ it alittle but never got anywhere. Its dead. Boo. So the next 2 nights we hung out upstairs. Very strange. I hate watching tv in my bedroom. I stretch out on my bed and I'll fall asleep. My body gets all confused. LOL We considered upgrading to HD but decided to check out all our options first. I found a similar tv for $40 on craigslist and we picked it up yesterday. We are back up and running.
I have started a new quest. Just recently I have been feeling really blah. Its really the only way to describe it. Physically not mentally. I hurt and I'm sore. I've lost some mobility and range of motion. And I know its cause of my weight. I have a friend at work that had kinda buddy-ed up w/ me and we were trying together about 5 mons ago. But I wasnt serious about it and he's lost like 50 lbs already. Well he started talking to me about it the other day and it got me to thinking. I feel so ashamed of myself for letting it get this bad. And its like this weird feeling to feel ashamed of yourself. My mind cant truly process the feelings and it just blocks it out. I mean I see myself. I know I'm overweight. But it wasnt affecting my life so I didnt care. But now it is. I make excuses for why I cant do normal things. I miss out on fun activities w/ friends and family. And if I do go I'm miserable. If you aren't overweight this probably is confusing for you but I know I'm not alone in my thought. My weight is starting to control me and my life.
And I cant take it anymore.(Deep breath)
I weigh over 300 lbs. I dont know for sure bc I dont have a scale. (on the must buy list) Not much over I believe but I dont know for sure. I think the last time I weighed was 307 or something like that. Just past the heaviest I've ever been. I was 304 in Jan of 03. It took me 6 years to get back there. Not to bad I guess. But I got back here.
Russ and I are doing it together. We feel we've set some realistic expectations to start with. We aren't climbing a mountain in one day people. Here's our plan.
- No Fried Food
- Very Limited Soda intake (less then 2 a week)
- A "real" vegetable w/ every meal
- Portion control (I will plate the food)
- Walk everyday.
We hold each other accountable. And we have a 2 week reward system as well. Achieving the award is based on the other spouse. $20 each every 2 weeks to be spent specifically on CD/DVD. (we lost all our cd/dvd collection during our hard financial times)
Today is day 2. So far so good. LOL I really hope this is the time that works. I KNOW this will be the time that works. I believe.
*sigh
2 comments:
Sorry work is so crazy, things always seem to go to heck when the supervisor is gone. My money is on you for being successful with your weight loss,when you set your mind on something you do it. I hit my bottom with my weight in Feb. I was afraid to go on a ride with my kids because I didnt want to be embarrassed if the saftey belt didnt fit right. It was very emotional for me I started my blog over its now ali's babblings I will blog about it. It's one of the suggestions the nutritionest working with me suggested. Good Luck amd let us know how its going.
Rhi
I started my weight loss blog it's called Ali weighing in check it out when you get a sec. Ali
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