My Boys

I went a saw my 2 baby bro's Sunday and skipped out on church. They are doing so much better. I was so glad. Last time was awful. Their doing the best they can in the situation they are in. Rylands court date is Dec 1st. I need to ask my mom if this is something I should take off work for.

Ronnie comes home Friday!!! I am so excited. I wanna spend 1 million hours w/ him. I miss him so much.

I planned on posting more but I gotta run upstairs and I dont know know if I'm coming back down. I may need to just go night night.

son of a ....

Someone in Friendswood searched for Ryland and Chaz and a few other things and got to my blog. So I am going private. You will need to send me an email to be added as a reader.

rusrhi at aol dot com

***EDITED***
Well I went private and then public again after I reread all the post. It doesnt say anything. But if you are one of the 2 people in Friendswood who are reading my blog it sure would put me at ease if I knew who you were. Even if you are my Mother in Law??????

:-)

Please let me know. Comment me or something.

I have a super awesome site counter and I know who was here, how you got here, and what you did while you were here, so I'll know if you come back.

Kreativ Blogger

Robyn from My Creative Corner & Things nominated me for this awesome award.

Thank you Robyn for not only stopping by, but for finally coming outta the wood work. Now it’s my turn to pass this award on, but first the rules:

1. Thank the person who gave this to you.

2. Copy the logo and place it on your blog.

3. Link to the person who nominated you.

4. Name 7 things about yourself that no one would really know.

5. Nominate 7 Kreativ Bloggers.

6. Post links to the 7 blogs you nominate.

7. Leave a comment on each of the blogs letting them know that you nominated them.

Now it's my turn to pick 7 things I think no one would really know about me...

1. I drive fast and have really bad road rage. I drive defensively and I believe you can be both defensive and aggressive. I dont tail gate, I pass slow (IE people going the speed limit) cars. I hate hate hate when people tail gate me but I learned a new awesome trick, turn your windshield wipes on when someones on your butt. LOL Its the only form of satisfaction when someone is riding your @55!! But I dont speed in school zones.

2. I am a reformed cheater. If you've heard the saying once a cheater, always a cheater, its not true. I have cheated on everyone. Until Russell. I have got myself in some rough situations but I think about my husband and how devastated he would be and it stops me in my tracks. Even in our worst times I could never imagine it. The right person can turn any selfish person into a faithful partner. Its called LOVE.

3. I need your approval. I cant stand when someone doesnt like me. There have only been a few that I know of but even those few, in the beginning, drove me nuts. I dont get it. I'm awesome why dont you like me!!

4. I love love love love to make people laugh. Its like my calling or something. I get such a "high" from cracking people up. Whether its one person hanging out at the house, the family at a family function or a group of co-workers, anything. If I get a chance I will make you laugh. I have to. Its my job. LOL

5. I like to play the Sims. But I only really enjoy building and decorating the homes. I barely play out the actually lives. I sketch out floor plans and take hours making each one, to only play the character for like 2 days.

6. I am not a good housewife. I wanted to "grow up" and be a housewife my whole life but thats crazy. I hate all housework. I hate to grocery shop. Blah. But my wonderful awesome husband picks up the slack and its a good thing or we'd be living in a pig pen. My mom used to say I'd grow into it bc she got better about it as she started having babies and such. Well we'll see...

7. I am a walking juke box. I can sing to like 98% of music. My parents raised me listen to everything. I know old old old school R&B. Classic Rock. 70's. 80's. 90's. Christian. Country. Oldies. The only area I'd say I dont know is Alternative Rock. So you could flip thru 10-12 radio stations and I could probably sing along to most.

And for this award I nominate:

1. Rachel Life 'N Stuff

2. Ali Ali's Babblings

3. Rose Everythings going to be Alright 2

4. Nipsy Nippleicious

5. Heather Living the Good Life in Bklyn

6. Kelly Green Alert!

7. YOU! If you are reading this, go ahead and do it. Its fun.

LOL maybe TMI

I heard some good news today for Ryland. He's not going any where but something that could have kept him there for a loooooooong time might be working itself out.



I hate having to be so secretive. But let me just say this I am getting like 25+ hits a day and I dont know who is here. I have 1 person who comments regularly. I have even considers going private while all this is going down. I'd hate to lose readers by going private but seriously I hate not being about to talk 100% openly about all this.



One of my employees from my last team passed away Monday. From what I understand she passed due to complications from the swine flu. CRAZY!



Ok eh... Russell wants me upstairs so off I go.... *wink

Day 3 for R & Day6 for C

I am so sleepy. Maybe I should try and go to bed earlier. LOL

I went and saw Chaz and Ryland yesterday. Man that was alot harder then I thought it would be, on me, not them. All day today I felt like I was better off before I saw them. But I think I just need to get used to it. Its weird to have to go "there" to see my brothers. Of course I cant see them together. They have them separated. Chaz and Ryland passed each other and Chaz waived at Ryland and Ryland ignored him.
When Ryry told me that it broke my heart. This is all so weird to me.
I dont wanna do this.

I've started drinking more since this all went down. It doesnt help tho.

Russ is still unemployed. I am going to have to withdraw my 401k. Since we were about 2 weeks behind before he lost his job bc of someone owing us money (which we arent getting) now that he has no income we are getting even further behind. I dont wanna wait till we are in a super tight spot. So I'm going to withdraw some cash and get caught up. Hopefully that can sustain us till he gets a job.

Mkay I am ready to relax.

The past 24 hrs have been terrible.

Ryland was picked up Saturday afternoon.

Ryland was supposed to spend the weekend w/ me but when I went to get him on Friday he was sick. He felt really bad and kept saying he was sorry. We rescheduled for Saturday. Yeah that didnt really work out.

Saturday morning was Womens Celebration at my church. It was nice. And right after that was Melodi's 3rd bday party at Chuck E Cheese's. Had a blasty blast there. Afterwards my mom had asked if me and Krystal wanted to go see Chaz. When we got there the stupid lady said Krystal and I couldnt see him bc we weren't on the list. Super lame. She did bend the rules alittle and let us waive to him thru like 40 windows.

So sad...

When we got back to the car my mom checked her messages and my dad had said they came and took Ryland. Last night was awful for me. I tried to drink my pain away but that never helps. I finally went to bed around 3am. I just kept thinking about the memories I have w/ him. Everything we've done together.

So much has changed in just a few days.... I'm not going to do it to myself again right now.

My mom is going to add me to the visitors list tomorrow and I'm going after work. She's going to try and add Krystal and Russell too.

Blah...

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Update to my happy post from this morning.

MY LIFE IS OVER. AN AWESOME DAY RUINED. A PIECE OF MY HEART HAS BEEN RIPPED OUT. HOW CAN A PERSON LIVE W/ HEARTACHE?

OMG Update

I missed my post yesterday for the NaBloPoMo. But I have good reason. Anyway I'll post twice today.

My mom's lawyer got the report and Rylands name is no where on it. He is clear.

*DEEP SIGH OF RELIEF

Chaz is still in jail and so are 2 others. I feel very sorry for Chaz.

I have a church event to finish getting ready for. Got a busy day today. I'll be back later for another post. Thank you for the prayers!

HR is a joke

Sigh...

I have more info but I cant currently share it. My brother is still "free." I wanna blog about this so bad... He will be coming to stay w/ me this weekend since we dont know how this may turn out and he may not be around much longer.

I dont know who reads this but if anyone in my family does I would appreciate if this isnt shared. I dont know who all my mom and dad want to know and so I'm leaving that up to them. Thanks!

I am really glad tomorrow is Friday. Work was tiring this week. Even tho I got recognition every thing else was terrible. I had my break down over Ryland there and the managers were asshats over that. There were some issues w/ a couple of my agents trying to get LOA's from HR. And I have mentioned my opinion w/ our local HR dept previously. It just needs to be a new week so I can start over and they can gossip about someone else.

All day today I have had a horrible pain in my right side. Its up towards my breast under my ribs. Its really bothering me and its probably something really silly like gas (LOL) but it hurts and its not moving. Occasionally I'll get a sharp pain randomly. Blah.

I just need some me time. A long hot bath would be good... Yeah. Thats what I'm going to go do now.

I hate coming up w/ titles

This day started off ok but took a horrible turn half way thru the day.
I got an email that I won a contest at work. It was based on performance and I was #1. Of course who thought otherwise. I rock. I won 2 polo shirts and a full day off w/ pay. Whoop Whop WOP! (lol havent used that inside joke in foreve)
After lunch I got a phone call from my mom that Chaz and Rylands friend have been arrested. Last update was they have NOT arrested Ryland. I have a bunch of diff information and its sure confusing. I broke down at work and balled my eyes out. The worse part was when management had to come over. One of the managers said I was having a heart attack or something to that nature. So, SO, SOOOO rude. Yeah, bc I'm fat I am obviously having a heart attack. Whatever the 2 that came over we very inconsiderate of my feelings. They have a business to take care of I get it. But this break down also conveniently happened at the same time we were in crisis levels in queue and my break down was an awesomely dramatic way to get outta having to walk the floor. Bc apparently I hate being "walking the floor" and I always flat out refuse to do it.
WTF.
Seriously. First off, I would never NEVER refuse to do work. I am not that kinda employee. Yes I bitch and whine if I dont like it but I wouldnt talk back to a manager. 2ndly if this was the case my manager would have written me up for insubordination. He wouldnt tolerate that behavior. 3rd how rude of them. Just flat out mean. If you have a problem w/ me go to my manager, dont call me out in the middle of a obviously personal break down. But then again they thought it was all an act to get outta doing some work.

This whole situation w/ Ryland sucks. All I can think about is the worse case scenario. What if.... I can't live w/ my 15 yr old baby brother in prison. This doesnt happen to my family. I talked to him and he says he didnt do it. I've already decided to stick by him 100%. I love him. He is my mini me. We are so alike. I really hope this work out for our family.

Tmobile and Stuff

So how many of you have Tmobile and have lost their phone service?

ME! and Russell. Its so quiet w/o the 50 or so text I get every evening.

No news about Ryland and Chaz. My mom said they stayed home from school today and a cop came by but they were to afraid to answer. I agree w/ Ali. If they had an evidence they would have already arrested them. But what I wanna know is why WHY are they harassing my brother. LEAVE THEM ALONE. They have done some silly things, I get it, but they dont deserve the comments from the cops. They have called my brother a rapist. Labeled them as gang members. Called them liars. ETC People who think racism is a thing of the past need to wake up. My parent live in a predominately white upper middle class white collar town and bc of that they get picked on by the cops.

This topic really gets me pissed off. My dad has been pulled over numerous times. I got pulled over bc my brothers when in my car. I HATE IT.

This is my family and we should be able to live peacefully just like everyone else.

Armed Robbery

I had an awesome night w/ Russ last night. He made me spaghetti and garlic bread. It was so good. He mixed one jar alfredo w/ one jar regular tomato sauce. Yummy. Its gooooood. The only thing that annoys me is why doesnt that loaf garlic bread from the grocery stores never cook all the way. Bleh!

My mom called me at work today and said she had some bad news. Just her calling me at work was a bad thing. Ryland and Chaz are being accused of armed robbery and attempted murder. Supposedly the police have them on video. But if they do how come the havent arrested them?When the police were trying to question they were trying to keep my dad out of the room. My dad kept saying either me or a my lawyer in the room. Finally the cops were like fine then we wont question them.
Why are the wanting to question them w/o my parents there? Very suspicious.
Just talked to my mom and the guys in the video are wearing masks and gloves. AND it supposedly happened at 11:30pm on Saturday. My brothers were home before then.

Anyway so thats awesome. Blah. I'll be praying the real criminals are caught so Ryland and Chaz can be left alone.

NaBloPoMo

I have decided to participate in NaBloPoMo. We'll see how this goes.

Today is me and Russ 6 year anniversary. We are broke so we are doing nada. Oh well. A nice dinner at home is aways good too.

Russell lost his job. Again. This time its not his fault. I even called his boss to check. I dont mean to be like that but I just dont trust him after what happened the last 2 times.

My moms awesome Halloween party was Friday. Had a blast as usual. I have a ton of pics. I'll need to upload them. Russ and I went as a couple from the 80's. We looked AWESOME!

Hmmm... not much else for now. Need to save up some entries so I can make it thru the month.